Oletta is gone. My love, my friend, my Oletta. I loved her so much, I can't even describe. I thought it was finaly over, I thought I was over Max, but now it started all over again. I cried myself to sleep two days after eachother. It's so unfair. Why Oletta, she was so sweet, so friendly. And I never got the chance to say goodbye. I asked where she went, but he didn't want to tell me. I think she isn't alive anymore, but maybe she is. I don't know. I'll search her though, if she's still alive I hope to find out. With Max it was hard too, but it was better for him, he had so much pain and he had been in so much pain last year that it ws better. But with Oletta, it's just unfair. I want to see her, hold her one more time. She was my everything. I just can't say goodbye.